"5 years ago, I consciously chose to begin nurturing my inner child. I came across a diary from when I was 9 years old. It was covered in Spice Girls, of course! And a lock and key. As I paged through it, it was empty except for 2 pages. The one had remnants of yellowing glue where a picture of me had once been, and above it were the words "FAT ME!!" In my hand writing. The other page was a letter to myself with the most awful words essentially describing how, because of my appearance, I wasn’t good enough.
It was at that moment that the blue ink seeped into my heart, and I heard a crack. I consciously made the decision to burn the diary along with any thought patterns of not being, feeling, or looking ‘good enough’. I began to practice self compassion in the form of breath work, journalling, and allowing spaces of feeling safe within my body.
It’s an ongoing journey, and I have changed my perspective that instead of it being long and winding that it is miraculous and grounding.
I came across Jen’s page on Instagram after having had breast implants removed. The implants were a stepping stone on this miraculous journey, and that stepping stone started to form cracks, so I decided to remove it. Or rather, my body decided it was no longer needed. That we are safe exactly as we are.
Casting my breasts almost 1 year post surgery is definitely one of the most vulnerable things I have ever done, and I am so grateful for that vulnerability. I am grateful to Jen for the safe space she creates physically and compassionately.
I chose the colour pink to celebrate and symbolise my inner child who has and continues to be with me every single step of the way. How grateful I am that she never left my side"